Who needs drugs?

The song changes from ek baar muskura do by munni begum to i cant get no satisfaction by stones.. And i’m sitting in the office, taking a sip from a cup of black coffee with insides that look like oblivion. I’m bored!

I was bored 2 months back.

Then I thought hah, lets change jobs, cities, and everything, might bring back my interest in this life.. So, that what I did, moved from delhi to mumbai, between the transitions i traveled a bit, to rishikesh, goa, ahmedabad and pune… So wat more do i need to get inspired and kick back! But I’m bored again!

Song changes to 99 red love balloons by bjork.

I think it is a serious disorder, I went to college for 6 months and then decided to drop out, coz I had enough of the stupid fy lit. students. I was bored. What was i gonna do now! Join Dad’s business. Yippeee! Worked with dad for an year and damn! I was bored again! Quit that!
Now what? something happened and I landed in adveritising copywriting, woah! Dayumn cool! I be writin ads!
Worked in A’bad had a ball and then one day, i got bored! Went to Delhi!
Thrills thrills! changed jobs! New city, new people, new work!
Worked in delhi, for an year and yes, I was bored!

Moved to Mumbai, changed jobs, yeah baby thrills!
Sea! Media Hub!Fast Local! scam Ads!
I started work and tired real ahrd not to even go there, but after a month I was Bored!

Got in touch with Ken Babbs, I was jumping around to have talked to an original Merry Prankster, the guy who was on the bus, who experienced Oswley’s acid, shared a joint and the road with Ken Kessey and Neal Cassady! I couldnt believe i was talking to him! I was so wide awake that i was dreaming! but the thrill faded away! and i got bored!

Song changes to Ace of spades by Motorhead.

Ok! Lets get rid of this boredom, lets go to a’bad on bike! Alone! Night Ridin’! Damn! Thrills, thrills!
Did that, enjoyed every painful and beautiful second of it! Came back, all alive and kicking, fuck the motherfuckers!
After 2 days I was bored!

I’m bored and sick of everything right now! I’m bored of writing this post and stupid headlines for a travel agency. i’m bored of scam ads, i’m bored of looking at award books, of ever cribbing clients, of locals, of breathing, of blinking, of wearing socks, of taking a drag, everything!

Song changes to Hello I love you by the Doors.

why? How can everyone around me go on and on living the life they live! I wonder is karan getting bored in Delhi, oh he has just come back from Pushkar and leaving for Indore. Is richa getting bored back home? Nah! She’s too tied up with her work to get bored and her marathon Friends DVD set.

do you dont you want me to love you!

song changes to Helter Skelter by the Beatles!

So what’s the fuckin’ cure? no this is not the nicotine and caffiene overdose that i thought it was! They don’t last that long and they don’t explain all the bunked classes in secondary and higher secondary school! I wonder why I did that all the time? I guess just because I was bored! think i should check with the doctor, if this is a disease, rather have they known of any disease like this or this is plain addiction!

I guess this is just plain addiction that i need to beat, are there any rehabs for this? If i dont get my fuckin thrills all the time and I’m not under the influence of fun, i get bored and that casues some serious damaged behaviour!

song changes to hero of the day by Metallica!

when i look around me, i see this guy sitting on the next table who has been writing headlines since past 10 years now, and hasnt managed to get bored! Kudos! My dad’s running the same ol’ business since past 20 years and he’s still at it, then why do i get bored? Another thing that I notice is that i seldom get bored of people, coz with them i can go yak yakking for hours and hours and either they yak back or slap me or walk out and i keep following them yakking, but i dont get bored of them! I left school, college, cities and jobs but never left the people behind, I’m still there hovering around them! now thats fun! but then doing scam ads was fun too, so was writing a lot of crappy stuff and making people read it with pride then abuse them and kick them when they said its not that good!

song changes to hey you by floyd

I’m missing something, i guess… AH fuck it! This is my nth introspective post and it doesnt make any sense like all other! What’s more

I’m bored.

Just a few days back when i was busy spraying all the empty boards with Anarchy and my roomie and sister were looking at me with eyes brimming with despise and fear that oh damn he’ll ruin the new place!! While i was busy spraying a glass pane in the other room, my roomie was watching reports of Musharaff going crazy, arresting people and giving explainations! Guess the night before he saw an incomplete documentary on Hitler! Amongst all the chaos, Imran Khan came on the screen and started speaking in a fake american accent about how Musharraf is not doing justice and he said “there’ll be chaos and anarchy everywhere!” Listening to this my bald roomie started jumping like a boiling egg saying “Anarchy!Anarchy!Anarchy!Anarchy!Anarchy!Anarchy!” And this wasnt the first time, lot of people see that anarchy symbol tattooed on my neck and give me crazy reactions! Like an Afghan born american tattoo artist asked me in Delhi, “Are you a gangster?”

It is just so painful for me that people consider Anarchy synonymous to chaos, violence and terrorism! I went on wikipedia the other day searching for anarchy and how the idealogy translated into violence instead of peaceful existance of all, without a ruler! www.wikipedia.org states 3 definitions of anarchy

• “Absence of government; a state of lawlessness due to the absence or inefficiency of the supreme power; political disorder.”
• “A theoretical social state in which there is no governing person or body of persons, but each individual has absolute liberty (without the implication of disorder).”
• “Absence or non-recognition of authority and order in any given sphere.”

On reading the complete article I realized the word is being misused if i shall say that since the French Revolution. Any act against the authority is labeled as Anarchy. Why?

Anarchy in greek means “without rules/ruler”, if some demented people call themselves Anarchists and go around killing people and bombing political buildings, why should it give the whole thing a bad name? Rather the whole philosophy behind Anarchy is that people at large are sane enough to co-exist without any law and order! Anarchy is about absolute equality, it is what democracy wants to become, its what communism strived to be and dictators during fear.

Then there are people who say anarchy is just theory and ideal state. Well, isnt that is Democracy and Communism, aren’t we still living under dictatorship? I dont know about the other nations, but India sure lives under a deictatorship of sorts! I dont consider choosing between Hitler and Mussolini as democracy!. The only people i disrespect the most are Indian Army officers and our politicians.

After all this, I accept I still don’t have the balls to go to the streets and stand up for the nation, its people. Oh! No! not alone!(all the stuff about how a single man starts a revolution doesnt make me do it!) Anarchy maybe Utopic but I’m not quitting, i know everyone around me is equal, no one is worse or is better and never will be!

Just a request read about Anarchy, all you can lay your hands on, try wiki for starters!

“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes “Awww!” - Jack Kerouac